Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I Have the records from Port Macquarie Hospital and Royal North Shore Hospital.

I have started to read the hospital records (if you can call them that)... I am in no doubt at all that my lovely husband was killed by an operation he should never have had.
So where do I start. What am I hoping to do? All I know here and now is that when I think of the depth and level and length of his unnecessary suffering, and know what was done to him...just didn't happen...that those wonderful eyes which shone at me and smiled with love and that the mouth which for years called me "Spider" a term of endearment ...and "honky Tonk" which was just cheeky...will never do so again in this life fills me with a dreadful despair...how does one bear this?
How did he bear the constant assaults carried out upon him? No choice...but still those smiles he bestowed upon us, through it all were like diamonds of love. He deserves that at least I get some Justice for him... for our two girls, who know, who knew and still grieve so much...and for me.
( last birthday with his new leather hat and scarf and jumper...he was born fourth of July and that is cold here in Australia)

His life was sacred and should have finished when his body wore out...as is intended...not by this grotesque parody played out in his GP's rooms, the Operating Theatre and the filthy wards...which all masks as medicine... "first do no harm"... but which cuts, mutilates, infects, drugs and kills and takes and expects to take no responsibility at all and bleats when confronted with the disgusting outcomes of mistakes, negligence and arrogance.






So I have started..even half a page a day...






I will get there and I will do my best to ensure they know that we know...(stupid pricks)...and all I can hope for really...is that when they die they go to some kind of hell for their actions...Can live in hope? I am really angry... along with my grief.

(a man of many faces..and bewdiful to boot.)
I was sure blessed I reckon.

9 comments:

JahTeh said...

It took me a year to piece together the last 6 months and final month of my son's life. I didn't do anything with the information, it was enough that I knew and Karma has taken care of a few of the people involved.

If in doubt, ask Don. That man is carrying you on his shoulders and he'll let you know.

Wanna_B_slim said...

What a wonderful man... You were very blessed to have him in your life..
Just looking at his photos shows that you will not be the only one missing his nature and sense of fun..
Take care and do what you feel is right with the information you have.
My grandmother died needlessly, Medical negligence over many years and none of us were strong enough to do anything about it.

charlie said...

I wish you strength, MC, as you battle with institutional machinery designed to frustrate you. Go gently and thoroughly and take care.

Middle Child said...

Thanks all.

Will be careful with this Charlie. I have learnt a bit from past "overenthusiasms" re fighting the buggered system. First quietly gather records. Don't go to lawyers who end up controlling everything...

MP's in Opposition can be handy but mostly not.

Get it all together in an easily readable and understood format...and thats the hard bit really... and will no doubt take ages...then when you are calm there are organisations such as Whistleblowers Inc who can then be handy as to helping you decide which direction to go...they are independent of Government funding.. go from there... maybe and or see what comes up...

Once I would have gone at it like a bull at a gate...

Wanna_B_slim said...

Well good for you for thinking like this... Slow and slteady wins the race in many situations. It is a big one to fight the medical system and it is going to be a long and stressfull battle. Take care of yourself. And I had to laugh at your "Kardonnay" comment.. I too used to drink "Kardonnay" but the hangovers were horrific!!! Thinking of you...

Bella said...

Dear Therese - I have been reading your blog for a while now and wanted to comment on your amazing unconditional, selfless, true love, you are truly an amazing woman for which I can learn a lot. Anger is a huge part of greiving and healing. You are going through it and my prayers are with you....Ms Bella

rosemary said...

Do what you need to do to ensure no one else travels the same path.

Cazzie!!! said...

Love to you MC, I dont reckon you were blessed, I KNOW, you were :)

gina said...

A good friend of mine who is an attorney said to write everything down chronologically, in detail, and in plain English, as completely as possible. Then, tell someone the story, and have them read what you wrote to see if what you wrote matches what you've told them, then present that to the courts/powers that be/whomever. Don't worry about legalese, just plain English.